"Held" by Natalie Grant...What it Means to Me

Yesterday I heard the song "Held" by Natalie Grant. I've heard the song many times before, but for some reason yesterday it just really resonated with me. I think it might be because it is March and every March I think about the anniversary of bringing our little Red Shoes home after he had lived in the NICU of our local Children's Hospital for two months.  I never forget how lucky we are to have him.  Those months were very scary and sad for us.  Red Shoes was our first baby and in all of the parenting magazines not once did I read an article that could have ever readied me for what we were experiencing. 

Never in my life did I need a God who would wrap his arms around me and just hold me as I did then.  And hold me He did.   I don't know how we could have survived that time in our lives without Him and without the people He so divinely put in our path.  From the NICU nurse that taught me how I to touch Red Shoes, to the Nurse Practitioner that ended up being a sister of my college roommate.  The list goes on and on of people who I KNOW God placed there in that moment for us and our little Red Shoes. 

Daily we were sifting through information that tests revealed or didn't reveal.  Our heads were spinning.  When everything fell we were held closely by God our Father.  In this Natalie Grant song these parents didn't get to hang onto their child.  But, they too were held and loved by our Father. 

Don't you think that the lilies of the valley represent Heaven and eternity with Him?  Even as a believer, I would be lying if I said that if things had turned out differently for us and Red Shoes was in Heaven I could understand it.  I think it would take me a long time.  But I do hope that I would get there.  I do know that God has the perfect plan and in time it will be revealed. 

Life gives us different situations and different heartaches, but I believe it is all to draw us closer to Him.

 Thank you God!


Natalie's Video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iOufqWodFNo

Natalie Grant's "Held"

Two months is too little
They let him go
They had no sudden healing
To think that providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling
Who told us we'd be rescued
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares
We're asking why this happens to us
Who have died to live, it's unfair

[Chorus]
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held

This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows
The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow

[Chorus]
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held
[Bridge]
If hope is born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our savior
[Chorus]
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held
We'd be held

This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held

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